For the past 2 years, I get one week into October, thinking I’m doing okay, this year I’m going to be much better as October 28th looms before me…

Then wham, bang, thud…

The black hole in the earth re-opens and threatens to swallow me up.

Last year in October, a dear friend of mine’s baby died in-utero.

This year, one of my favourite online friends, has just received results that her unborn baby has a genetic syndrome (Big Hugs My friend – you are in my thoughts).

My heart becomes as heavy as lead, as I think that anybody should have to go through this sadness, and even more so when its somebody I know.

The sadness that occurs when in an instant that picture of a beautiful, healthy baby, and those dreams and plans for that healthy baby/child are stolen. Either stolen completely, or morphed into a child we cannot picture, and dreams and plans that can no longer be imagined.

I wish I could take away all the pain and sadness.

Why can’t all baby’s just be healthy???

 

0 Responses to A Bad Day

  1. Fe says:

    Oh Lani. I’m so sorry. BIG HUGS for your friends, and for all people who have ever experienced the sorrow of losing their baby, or losing the healthy baby of their dreams.

    And BIG HUGS for you. I know about the emotional reactions that anniversaries can cause.

    So sad.

    Fe xxxxx

  2. Alison says:

    Oh Lani.
    I am so hurting with you.
    My glimmering light at the moment – Even if babies aren’t always the picture of health we expected, we will ALWAYS love them.
    Nothing can ever, ever, take that love away from us.

  3. Melody says:

    You know I’m crying as I type this.

    You are right, why can’t all babies be born healthy? You expect your pregnancy will go smoothly and then bam! something happens.

    I view life differently now. I honestly do. Makes you appreciate just what a miracle it is to actually have a healthy baby.

    I’m thinking of you.

  4. tiff says:

    Biggest hugs.

    It does hit you when you least expect it. It is always there, just below the surface.

    I’m so sorry for your friends but I also hope you are able to be gentle with yourself.

  5. jeanie says:

    Lots of hugs for you, as always, Lani.

  6. M+B says:

    Thank you all xxx

  7. Trish says:

    Oh Lani
    my heart feels heavy too after reading this and I want to share their burden too.

    October is pregnancy loss awareness month.

    I am so sorry your friend had to say goodbye to her baby too soon -a baby dying in utero is horrendous. Though we carry,cradled them briefly in your arms they will be your hearts forever.

    May God grant your friend peace during this time and continue to carry them through this difficult journey of a genetic syndrome.

    I read a few yesterday and it broke my heart the stories.

  8. Trish says:

    I now know our friend whom you refer too and she is blessed by your support.
    (hugs)

  9. M+B says:

    Trish – Thank you and hugs to you. I know there are many of us who feel heavy hearted…

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